There are two storms brewing in my life today. One is a hurricane named Dorian that is set to impact my area in a matter of hours. The second is the diagnosis of breast cancer that I received yesterday. I mentioned that I had two biopsies done last week and I needed a distraction last weekend. This was the answer I wanted a distraction from. I needed the distraction because I knew the answer already.
For me, the biopsy was just the next step in the process of what was to come. I wasn’t being a victim. I wasn’t being defeatist. I wasn’t showing a lack of faith. I just knew. Like you know when you are pregnant before you confirm it. No one in my life that has been aware of the testing that I’ve been undergoing wanted to hear me say that I knew it was cancer during these 3 weeks that I’ve known. So I have been doing my researching, planning, mourning and peacemaking on my own. Preparing to walk my tribe through this journey. So now, it’s out there. Everybody knows and its not just me knowing anymore.
Now the journey begins. I pray that I will walk it with grace and dignity. That I will be an example to my kids (most especially my daughter). That I will know how to communicate my needs effectively to my husband. That I will show love when I am frustrated, patience when I am in pain, and gratitude in all of it.
